hmmmm
Mood:  chillin'
life is full .. of good and bad and the unanswerable. the future? God only knows. Its all in Your hands coz I can not do a whole lot.
Yesterday Bradley broke his arm .. being stupid on a swing. . just in time for summer. I was always scared of him on the swing, and the first time I am not there .. it happens. well .. lesson learned.
Youthline last night .. ppl on rehab programs, lonely ppl, silly ppl .. Lord we are so lost without you and so stupid. kids cutting themselves .. kids in yth groups .. when will ppl take you serious?
my weaknesses are my thorn .. but it is not hurting enuf.

Work
So contemplative Lord.
Two huge conversations and prayers with struggling Youth Workers. No easy answers. Just prayer and support. God, there is some crap out there. .. I am not shocked by anything anymore .. even in the church :-(

Conversations
The other night I did my 3 hour duty on the Youthline phones. I love just being there for ppl to talk to. I was intrigued by the I talked to for over half an hour. She just wanted to talk. Her life revolved around her boyfriend who was gonna dump her. That was it .. so no boyfriend, no life. Wow. Sad
It is easy to talk to strangers when you are cruisy about it and can joke a bit. She would have talked to me all night, but we got thru the big stuff. :-( Some people just have no hope .. how do we show them You Lord?

me
Mood:  spacey
I sometimes think if i was by myself I would be so much more 'unconventional' .. maybe even a little wierd.
Like today I thought I would just sit in my car at the park all night .. it was so peaceful . I would do this, sleep in my car.
But this just isn't normal. And I have people who have expectations on me. So I just behave normal. I don't do what is in me to do. We can't always, thats life.